leave&forget.

Sadism is all right in its place, but it should be directed to proper ends.Sigmund Freud

you can't expect people to think they way you do.

i chose to be the villain, the bad guy, the jerk, and so be it.
in the end i should not care whether i hurt someone's heart/feeling,
since i am the one who is all to blame.

you know, good things don't last forever.
one day, sooner or later they'll all be replaced by the bad ones.
that is why i am always scared whenever something that's too good to be true happens,
because later there'll be something bad in return.

you know, it's like what people said "don't laugh too much you might cry."

even freedom requires responsibility.
everything we do requires one.

it's easier to blame other for what you feel than admit things.
it's easier to say "i'm hurt" rather than "i know i hurt you, thus i'm hurt."
because people don't always get what we mean.

so since i am the bad guy, i play my role, i play my part.
it's okay being replaced.
it's okay being thrown away.
it's okay being abandoned.
i am so get used to it.
what matters to me is that everybody's doing fine.
so i will be fine.

you know how funny it is when in the first place you give a warning.
and you know that in happiness state, people don't really listen to what you say,
furthermore when it's about bad or ugly possibility.
they don't really care.
happiness is a temporary state.
even you CREATE happiness in order to feel or get one.
it's a properly planned and customized state.

i learn not to say things when my heart is bitter.
i learn to just keep silent.
i learn that silence is gold.
i learn that there's no such thing as mutual understanding when it comes to argumentation.
when it comes to fight.
when it comes to misunderstanding.
when it comes to EGO.

but then people always come with reason and logic.
just for them to understand and grasp issues and situations.
in order to step in their comfort zone.
in order to create an understanding.

to me, it's no longer about who's hurting who.
it's a mere phase i have to go through in life in order to know who's the best.
in order to understand there are millions type of people on earth.
in order to understand myself.

everything happens for a reason.
but one thing i always believe:

and to put it bluntly, i love dogs more than humans.

because they're sincere, hold no grudge, lovable in any circumstances, they have unconditional love til death do us part, and endless loyalty.

Dogs are miracle with paws. ~Attributed to Susan Ariel Rainbow Kennedy