Monday, April 25, 2011

love is overrated?

yesterday i saw one of tv shows aired the topic of "LOVE"
the tagline was: "Love is crazy."

thus i wonder whether i would post a blog about it or not
since it is a kind of delicate topic to talk about over here
but then i thought "well it is too much, maybe i just have to separate it from what i usually talk about here"

but then i was intrigued by someone saying "LOVE IS OVERRATED"
not only intrigued, i was challenged......
not to prove how not overrated love is, but to prove, love is merely something that people try to define
to make it real.

that is at least what i believe

hereby i try to define what is love in the first place ACCORDING to what people define it (of course it is from dictionary! ha!)

American heritage dictionary: love
  1. A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.
  2. A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.
    1. Sexual passion.
    2. Sexual intercourse.
    3. A love affair.
  3. An intense emotional attachment, as for a pet or treasured object.
  4. A person who is the object of deep or intense affection or attraction; beloved. Often used as a term of endearment.
  5. An expression of one's affection: Send him my love.
    1. A strong predilection or enthusiasm: a love of language.
    2. The object of such an enthusiasm: The outdoors is her greatest love.
  6. Love Mythology. Eros or Cupid.
  7. often Love Christianity. Charity.
  8. Sports. A zero score in tennis. 
from all the definitions above, i shall say: all of them are truly human beings' perspective of what is love, not what love actually is
so what is love?
i can simply say i don't know.

if i have really to answer is, my answer would be definitely similar to one of above definitions.
then it would become useless for me to define it, since love is so abstract, nothing can describe it
you know it is simply like abstract art
guess what, the artist may say EVERYTHING or ANYTHING about their art
but really? they have any idea what it is about?
i know why i am doing my abstract painting
i know what it is about
i know the reason behind it
i know the tools
i know everything about it but the abstraction itself
it is absurd
almost undefinable.
but then..... it is the beauty of it
because you cannot really define it, it becomes something that triggers your emotion
that why abstract art is intriguing and affecting you so much when you face it
you ask 10000 people who experience the same one abstract piece, you will get 10000 different interpretations
forget the definition, forget the title, forget the artist
forget everything you know about the art itself and start interpreting it according to what you experience in life
you get similar affect like when you have to define art

you pause for a moment, think carefully about it, and start remembering everything you know/do/get from your life experience to compare or to put it together and explain what the art piece is about (love is about).

but who can really define the abstract piece itself but the artist?
but then where does the talent come from?
where does the idea of abstraction come from?
only He knows.

thus, even people create the term LOVE, they don't really know what it is
we can only define something, describe something just to make it REAL and make it OURS

this bothers me so much when people start to blame love or use love term as something that affect your life so bad
if you don't care or don't bother at all about love
you still care about it by bothering say I DON'T CARE
when by the time you are saying it, you instantly think what you are saying = you think about love itself

you know people crying for love, dying for love, surviving for love, being happy for love
but is it really FOR LOVE? or is it merely for YOURSELF
convincing yourself so much that IT IS LOVE
is actually just to make those feelings become real
that you can describe what you are feeling

you don't can't hate love
you only hate yourself and the situation that shapes/makes you do that
you only hate the person that cause it
you hate the fact
not the love itself
love becomes the black sheep most of the time

there must be something that cause people say "i hate love", "i hate being in love", "love is overrated", "love is underrated", or even "love is bullshit"
love is only how we see it, interpret it, define it, experience it.

if i have to say, i guess love really is crazy
crazy because you can't explain what you feel/do/experience
see crazy people out there, you can't tell what they do/say/think
that's why you say they're crazy
simply because you can't define it
can't understand or grasp the situation.

if i can say, love is simply SIMPLE.

so have a good day people!
though love cannot be defined
at least try to feel it in every little thing in your life~

Saturday, April 23, 2011

i babble.

i don't know really why i am writing this current post right now
but i just know i somehow need to channel my stupid silly temper i have been struggling, dealing with lately
i know my temper has been so unstable that most of the time i hurt either myself or other people
it is like i need my solitary moment or ME moment i have been craving for since i don't really know when

okay i know it might sound silly but i do miss alone moment like when i was in sg
yeah it is like naturally human being, you never get satisfied with what you have
but really, should we, people, human beings need ALONE moment in our lives?

for me, i do think so
sometimes there are certain things that others cannot digest/absorb
that sometimes are even confusing ourselves, stressing us the hell out
that sometimes we need to be alone, in a quiet place where nothing as disturbance
and sit there do nothing
but our mind is working like hell
just to solve THAT CERTAIN THINGS.

well maybe it's just me, the weird and quirky me in handling certain things

but i need literary quiet moment in life
where i don't have to do anything, just lying or sitting
emptying my mind
just to be in a serene level

but i barely have it here
living in a house sometimes is a challenge
when you want to scream or cry out loud for God sake you can't do it even in your own home
at least i can't
it's either people in the house would think i'm nuts or they will start asking questions, in which i don't want to deal with when i am not in the OKAY mode
it's crazy to think about it
how can sometimes home is not the coziest place on earth
not even in your own bedroom

well perhaps, in our own home, we are "forced" to act "normal"
the existence of family members sometimes is not the best solution to this kind of matter
it's like the more you are surrounded by people you know, the crazier things might be
and that is when all the stresses bundled and collided into one giant ball of stress

oh geez i forgot what i want to talk about in the first place LOL
this is really funny how my mind works lately
it's like i'm jumping into different lily pads at one time
it's like i'm losing control of my life, myself

oh anyway!
few days ago my right eye itch like crazy
well i thought it was sort of regular eye problem occur whenever i sit too long in front of laptop
but then voila! the next day i woke up, my right eye swollen like it was been stung by bee
it looked like i was punched by someone
but it hurt really bad so i decided to pay visit to doctor
which revealed that i had eye problem
the gland was blocked therefore it was swollen
the doc gave me 3 types of meds: eye drop, capsules, and ointment which i have to apply right in the inner side of eye lid (AAA! HORRIBLE!)

but now it is getting better
it just bothers me whenever i am wandering outside, the eyes are itchy and teary
sometimes hurt badly
but when i use specs they get better
but silly i can't be outside too long):
so i most of the time spend time at home do nothing but play game hahahha!

hope they recover realllll soon and healed completely

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

google. goggle. i giggle.

i somewhat cannot understand the way google behaves.
well basically i don't can't accept the way the system operates

so google is basically determines the language through our position
which means because i am in indonesia, the language is now indonesian
it is not that i hate it because it is indonesian
i do not understand it because i don't!
i am so frantic about my silly browser
whenever i log into my gmail or browse through google, the language keeps changing to indonesian
i do not understand bit of it
i even took almost 30 mins just now to figure out how to change the language to update my gmail account
can google makes second indonesian language option, as in bahasa gaul?
i prefer use browser with funky language, i can't help but scream everytime i use browser/phone/anything in formal indonesian
i am so sorry but my brain turns malfunction
maybe i really should learn EYD 1.0.1
oh anyway....
i really need a new camera and at least a new computer ):
badly need them!