don't you remember?

i really never ever thought that i would ever feel this kind of feeling again
i mean..... i thought i was smarter, tougher, wiser
i thought everything was perfect
i thought everything was under control

but then it appears it did not
it never was in my control
i was in control of what i have been doing

it is as if i am the one who was saying the final goodbye
i did
i said goodbye

i said i need my time

but i never thought that i actually am in love with you

funny thing i never once begged you to stay
not in a blunt direct sentence
but i wish we could just stay together

i have a determination to make you happy
but it appears you do not bother being happy

i have a will to try, to change, to be a better person that you can love
but it appears you just do not care

you said i tend to nag
i tend to expect more from you
i tend to not saying things i want directly
i tend to not fit you
i tend too much for you

so is it me who cannot handle you
or you are too afraid to handle me?

i really want you, i really do
i really want to make you happy

like we said in the first place,
like i said, "I just want to seek happiness in you, what's wrong in that"
and you said you wanted the same way
and so we tried again

everything seemed so alright

i never expected this coming

just to be honest with you i feel so devastated
i feel so ruined
i feel so desperately need you back

i dream of you, often times
i think of you, endlessly
i think about chance i did not take
chance i did not do
chance i did not offer
but then everything is over now

I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness and a wandering eye and a heaviness in my head

i talk like you
i start to think like you
i stalk you
i check everything about you
i behave like you
i listen to your favorite music
i tune in everything you do
i am a complete fool for you

while i struggle to move on
you seem so happily peacefully living your life

i am happy for you
i really am

it's good that you seem so happy now

i am just sad.....
sad that i no longer am part of your life
sad that we cannot talk like we used to
sad that things go so awkward between us
sad that this sucks so much that i just want to run away
sad that i just do not know you anymore

But don't you remember? Don't you remember? The reason you left me before. Baby, please remember me once more
Gave you the space so you could breathe, I kept my distance so you would be free and hope that you find the missing piece,

To bring you back to me,
Why don't you remember? Don't your remember? The reason you left me before. Baby, please remember me once more

When will I see you again