expect, expectation, be expected.

people will always be expecting something from you.

that one sentence is what i believe that everybody agree with

you know it happens every single time in your life, in our lives
i realize all my life since i was little girl people expect something from me
when i was small people used to say, "kapan sekolah?"
when i went to school then people said, "kapan masuk sd?"
when i went to elementary school back then i was so petite that i was DIFFERENT from my other cousins or other children so people said, "aduh kok kurus banget sih, ga dikasih makan ya... kapan gedenya?"
when i went to junior high school and gained some weight and puberty issue people added more issue by saying, "wah gemukan ya sekarang, jerawatnya banyak banget yah"
then i went to (another little hell on earth) senior high school back then people said, "mau kuliah dimana nanti, ambil apa"
when it came to the time i decided to pursue my study in singapore people then underestimated me by saying "ah kuliah jauh-jauh ngapain, gaya banget"
when i graduated from my college and went back to indonesia another saying was, "kenapa di indonesia kan disana aja enak gajinya gede bla bla bla blablablabla........................................................


see?
how people can never be satisfied with YOUR life.
but it is not the negativity i would like to talk about here and now....
not that.

neither the positivity...
i am talking about OUR ATTITUDES toward it

i know, i am not a successful individual in handling this issue
not that i never cried over it or whined about it
i did
i do, i still do
but i try not to

because no matter what we do or what we choose in our lives, we can never satisfy other people's expectation
what matters is about HOW WE EXPECT OURSELVES TO REACH CERTAIN GOALS IN OUR ON LIFE.

life is always about expectation, goal, aims, outcome
stop listening to others
listen to our hearts
what we want to pursue is our expectation, is what we should expect
we can't expect people to understand what we want
because we, each individual is COMPLEX
no one is able to understand us thoroughly
if so, why don't we just learn to appreciate who we are, what we are and treasure it
because we, each of us is special
we are not born with no intention in this life
i believe in that

darn i don't really know why am i writing this
babbling about this
but i just want to remind myself that I AM SPECIAL
those who are reading this ARE SPECIAL
YOU ARE SPECIAL
so never forget that

people should never prohibit or prevent someone from doing something good for themselves
because if someone never tries, they will never know what the future holds
you can't really ride a bike if you never fall from it
we become a pro when we know the structure, the step by step, the progress, the process
the ups and downs
the roller coaster ride..................
happy saturday people! (: