commercialized and contextualized

there is an obvious difference in doing projects for purely art and self-satisfaction with one for commercial use (baca: design)

well i personally feel that art and design are not really a unison, in a sense that design is actually part of the BIG tree called ART
and art, as the big tree, the big umbrella, obviously in making design project, we need context to establish certain idea, and i feel that in creating any design project, someone must have particular context to build the final design

as for me, regardless of what kind of project i am doing, either it's purely art for the sake of my own pleasure or doing it as a commission, or commercial design project, i always tell myself to do anything by heart

there is no way i would want to do any project carelessly or anyhow do
since i have my own state of pleasure in doing something good which leads to good result

even though honestly speaking, doing something for commercial use is still pro and con in my dictionary
why is so?

first of all usually commercial project is ruled by certain obligations bla bla bla that restrict the boundary of ideas
moreover, commercial projects is to fulfill certain group of people who want to fill their egos, in a sense that we, as the creator or the maker of the project, must be able to accomplish it as the goal

commercial ≠ freedom

even if the person in charge tells you to do whatever you want to do
believe me in the end you'll end up in following orders
it's not as free as you think it is

but let's see it from different POV
it doesn't matter whether it's commercial or any other projects
whether we are restricted by rules or free
when we are into the work, when we are doing it with all heart (and soul :p)
i believe when we are doing it, we are completely in different realm, so called OUR OWN WORLD (or dimension or whatsoever)
we are totally enjoying what we are doing as long as it is from the heart


YES, for sometimes i do feel tired or lazy to do it
but once i dip myself into the work, miraculously everything goes well and smooth
i enjoy doing it

YES, for most of the time i am tired with oh-so-you-know-everything-then-why-do-you-ask-me-to-do-it person in charge, that sometimes really knows nothing about composition or color combination or whatever they can mess with

YES, for sometimes the paycheck isn't as good as the mind heart soul time energy we put into it

YES, for sometimes the brain malfunction in not the right time

YES, for sometimes i go crazy in trying so hard to enjoy it but sometimes i fail


BUT!!!!!!
let's relax and try to enjoy every little details
whether it sucks or not
whether it's annoying or not

life's once
why bother hating it all the time
why bother complaining every single thing

we often, I OFTEN regret things i didn't do than things i've done
so let's go crazy and escape the box
no more restrict ourselves in hatred and complaints

my the key is to START everything first and put your HEART into it
then believe that the work you do is going to bring some goodness
it is either for yourself or for other people or for everybody to enjoy it


happy monday! (:

art rules!

ARTIST rules! :p

breads talk.

clay&watercolor paints

2010

Godspeed.

it's funny how most of the time
some people
just some

talking out loud about the goodness and kindness of someone they just met or knew
about how great that someone is
about how nice that someone is to them
talking gratefully like they world only survive if it's revolving around that someone

and then look back to where they belong
family?
home?
old friendship?
people whom care from the core of their hearts?

where are those people in your heart?
in your world?
in your mind?
in your prayer?
where are they?

isn't it ironic?
when you are supposed to be telling goodness of your own closest beloved people, instead you are forgetting them, criticizing them, searching and pointing their mistakes and badness
how is that making any sense?


family is like the biggest, warmest tree we have in this crazy world
it is like a shield from all flaws we have from being exposed to the entire crazy world where we might be rejected one day if we couldn't fit in anymore
or when crazy world is just too difficult to be reached

as for me

my father is the biggest warmest tree trunk
my mother is the root that keeps me alive, she is my life supports even though she fails me sometimes
but it is okay, still they are my biggest shelter
you see..
no matter, doesn't matter how many times my family fail me, hurt me, unintentionally
just because we are humans, we have flaws
and that's a family for, covering our weaknesses and flaws so we look great in society

and how is that making someone so pathetically deserting their own family for strangers, for something might not even greater than the precious family bond?
God knows, i believe He knows, He understands that the real goodness comes from the real core of someone's life: family
God grants our first encountering with the warmest strangers ever, which is family
so why, why some people just can't understand that they can, once twice or many times in their life, forgetting what made them throughout their entire life.
really, no matter how bad your family treat you, or maybe sometimes they forget to show their love
or maybe they are really mean according to you
think back, look back....
isn't there a tiny part of your memories that consists of goodness in belonging to your own family
and to take note, family isn't merely your father, your mother, or your siblings
family is the unison of different people in your life
brother, sister, grandfather, grandmother, cousins
you name it!
it still is a family

and i am feeling sorry for people who, just because their family did not treat them so well or once in a while their family forgot to show the love, or unintentionally hurt them, these people become so ignorant and keep telling the worst stories of their own family

no wonder the world is crazy!