wish me luck (:

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tomorrow i will be going for my first super formal job interview

usually i go to job interview super casual and like no burden on my shoulders
yet tomorrow, though it'll be like only semi part-time job, i feel like "oh my goodness, i must try hard and prove them fine arts graduate isn't merely FINE ARTS compared to design's"
damn what a great burden i carry over there

but hey
it is like nothing to lose
i should be more relax and be confident with myself

who cares if advertising people don't appreciate what i've got?
world doesn't revolve around them, right? (:

fine arts rule!
fine arts rock!

but anyway,
i am willing to learn
to absorb everything

so if i could get in the company,
i will face all challenge that will be given

BRING IT ON!!!!


oh btw i am making 2011 calendar that you can download once it's done! (:

december~

so it's already week two, december 2010

time flies so fast when we are enjoying life

really? LOL
perhaps tough
despite of all troubles, hectic days, screaming-shouting, and pulling-hair days
we finally made it to the end of the year
wow...
2011 is about to come

i am preparing my resolution like from few months back
excited?
not really, it is more of like because i have less thing to do after i graduated

but it does mean a lot
more free time gives me more time to ponder
to think of what i want in my life, etc.

it doesn't give me extra hour but at least i learn to cherish how important life is

i try to do my best every single day
but i have failed many times
but it is okay because i keep on trying
i am not easily giving up, no way

so life is to be fulfilled
to me, life is to learn
to learn, to absorb as many things as possible
not to mention because i am still so young
i want to learn as many things in this world as possible

i have learned a lot from blog to blog
i have been, like, observing
hunting
researching
many things i just figured out
just found out
from many creative blogs i have found so far
they are UHMAZING!
i mean it!
AMAZING!

once i even asked myself
"dang, how'd they come up with that idea! i didn't even think about it once ever!"

see.. how people are so creative
how people are so innovative

and imagine what if you are the last person on earth who does not move forward?
who does not evolve?
who does not productive?
isn't life too short to be wasted?

the more i write
the more i research
the more i observe
the more i see
the more i look around
the more i absorb
the more i think
the more i do
the more i make myself better


oh btw, have you heard song by Katy Perry, Firework?
(i know it has been quite sometime since it was released)
i am in love with it
super good
esp. the lyric
check it out

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

authenticity.

what's authentic?
is there really such thing as authenticity?

regarding to the popular saying among art people,

everything has been done before

recalling to what was discussed in theory class when i was in college,
this particular saying evokes big reactions from the entire class

if everything has been done before,
wouldn't art be nothing but a copy?

some say yes, some say no

but as art people in art industry
there is no way we could ever agree to this statement
if art = copy, it useless, it's nothing

so what's left but dead discussion?

my first reaction was: damn, really everything?
but then my second thought: okay if it's really everything, isn't there something after everything that has better quality or even modified to certain extend that it doesn't any longer resemble the "has done before"?

for example:

if i recreate Monalisa, BUT i create it in my own manner, in a way that i make the painting by using different medium or style, per se

YES for it is still Monalisa i make, which is a copy of the actual Monalisa(which is also a copy of copy - it goes on and on if i want to discuss)
and YES for i use the painting method which has been done zillion times
and YES for any kind of medium i use, even if i claim it as NEW MEDIUM, i bet someone, somewhere has been used it before
and YES for my personal style that i am still sure that somebody in this entire universe has the same style as mine

so what makes my Monalisa different from Leonardo da Vinci's?

first thing i would like to bring up is THE IDEA
yes it could be someone's idea as well
but how about the EXECUTION?
even if zillion people in the world can have same style as i do, would the brush stroke be the same? exact same?
the pressure?
the choice of brush?
the choice of canvas?
the way i move my hands?
the choice i make which i want to paint first - the head? the hand?
the color i choose?
the paint brand
SOOOO MANY THINGS I COULD ARGUE

something that we make, even though it is a replica of something, i am sure, when we do it with hearts
the emotion derives from it would be much different
even if millions Monalisa from different people in around the world put together side by side
I AM 1000000000000000000000000000000% SURE you will get different emotion and feeling when you see them one by one

there are some things that can't be copied that easily.

okay, what a long intermezzo
well actually what i wanted to discuss in this writing is that the idea of copying itself
the reason why IKEA does not want to open its branch in Indonesia is because it is afraid of copying issue
from there, that particular sentence,
i could conclude: so Indonesia (esp. Indonesian) is so great at copying things that IKEA, that big company, is afraid of us?
makes me wanna ROFL!

but sadly, if we are so good at copying things, why can't we make something great out of it?
which i am sure, when we, Indonesia, can create such great things and sell it, imagine to the world
how much money could we get?

you know, everytime i visit certain cities in indonesia (as if i have visited many of them hahaha)
Yogyakarta, Bali, you name it
esp. when i visited Bali
you can see MANY handicrafts, rattan, BEAUTIFUL furniture made of rattan are spread along the way
and it looks damn elegant which i am sure it is expensive
but sadly..... it is to be exported
meaning that what's left to us, Indonesian, is usually ex-exported
see so many factory outlets in bandung, bogor, puncak?
the clothes are ex-exported
meaning we get rejected items

isn't it super sad?
i feel pathetic
really

when those things are exported, the price extremely goes high
so what we got left here is kind of rubbish.

i don't want to believe it but along these times we have been scraping our own rubbish
we made them
we sent them abroad
we got rejected items
we scrape them all the time

another issue is the copying issue regarding certain ideas: music, writings, any kind of thing that can be copied

simplest thing is STYLE
not only fashion style
but also style of writing
style of speaking

people say

copying is a flattering thing

meaning that when others copy what we have/do, they adore ours

really?
isn't it just a matter of laziness?

imagine if you create something amazing, beautiful
with all hard works
endless sleepless nights
lack of foods
the energy we spent
the time
all the sacrifices we made

and then it is easily copied in a cheap way

flattered?
i don't think so
first reaction i would be so pissed off, angry
and if i could i would sue the copier

too bad that not all things can be patented

but way worst that people just can't respect and appreciate what someone does/makes

not all things in the world come cheap, you know....
some are just meant to be priceless (no you can't even swipe your visa out of it!)